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Here I sit, broken hearted.... Posted on: 07-23-2004 @ 04:52 pm |
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| I haven't been here in a long time, and I am kind of disappointed that there is no longer a forum to discuss things on, but this journal thing seems kind of neat, so I'll try it out. I am finally ready to get back into the scene, after a six month hiatus, and am clear headed and broken hearted, having lost the greatest thing I've ever known; my band. I was with them for four years and because of a bad choice, well, several bad choices, I was told that they didn't want to be on the same stage with me ever again. That hurt, in more ways than one, and the straw that broke the camels back got even worse, and progressed to a point that showed me that my life had become unmanagable. I am grateful that I never had enough money to totally destroy myself, and that I sought help before that happened, because I know now that would have come to be if I would have continued down the path I was on. I rationalized my problem with living the Rock and Roll lifestyle, following in the footsteps of my idols, who's drug use eventually killed them, and I wanted that for myself, that was how sick I was. I am clean and serene now, and the only thing my new life lacks is a connection with other musicians. I play on a daily basis, but nothing compares to being on that stage with my brothers behind me, feeling like there is no one else there but the four of us, and riding that wave, filling that room with the passion we all have for our music. I know it will never be like that again with my brothers, who I still consider brothers, even though two of them don't even speak to me anymore. They are my brothers because we made beautiful music together, we created an album through pain, blood, sweat and tears, and I have so many great memories of them. I always felt honored to be on stage with them, they are extremely talented musicians, and I hope our paths cross again someday, I hope they remain active in their musical pursuits. I love them, and I love all you other musicians out there, music is what connects us all, regardless of genre or preference, and nothing can ever take that away. |
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Last updated on 07-23-2004 @ 04:52 pm
| Comment By: maggiejane (Posted on 07-31-2004 @ 10:30 am)
Comments I too, am new to this what seems to be a miracle site...and too, this journal intrigues me.. I am VERY bitter and apprehensive about ever writing into a computer again for fear this one too will crash and all will be lost and left to a dust laiden mind to remember! HA!
ANY WHOOOO!!
I am sorry that such turmoil developed with your relationships.....you MUST be a firm beliver in the good ol phil. that EVERY-THING happens for a reason. YOU have already proved that to your self. You allowed your fears and anger to take you to the bottom of the drowning pool (NO pun intended:) BUT the good news is you DIDN'T sink your swiming, but it sounds like in your journey maybe you swam a little further from shore that you hoped! Oh well that happens, keep swiming, take rest tread water when neccesary, and you'll be on shore playing at that beach party soon !
In the mean time RESPECT your brothers disappointments, I am SURE that in this cut throat biz. you are in, they deamons of their own fight! Be patient and never be the one to burn those bridges...Show the in a quiet way that you are trying to be the best you you can be. Take the criticism with a grain of salt or a whole box if needed. And mosty of all KEEP PlaYING AND ESPECIALLY WRITE-IT-OUT! By the way, i dont reccomend writing it down in a computer unless you know how to back that ass up!!:)
GOOD LUCK in all you do and PLEASE don't stop trying.! Maggiejane ps.....sorry this ended up so long....I was just very moved by you plea for mercy! |
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| Comment By: wiki (Posted on 09-04-2004 @ 07:42 pm)
Comments Time to find another band and move on in the right direction.
Stay clean. |
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| Comment By: TonicIntrusion (Posted on 09-12-2004 @ 01:18 am)
Comments Amen.......bet you're writing round the clock now.........yep even a pinto feels like a limo if you have the right music and company:) you're writing is worded like someone I almost know does...all the love in the world to ya. |
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